I'm pretty sure we all remember where we were this fateful morning.
I was pregnant with Johanna and 6 days away from my due-date. I woke up, and waddled down the steps of our MN house and got online to check in with my gang. They had this thing about my not checking in with them at least once a day. They would get worried about me for some silly reason.
Someone posted that something was happening in NYC and we should check the news. I waddled upstairs and turned on the tv. I called Eric at work, and left a message. I told him, I don't know what's going on, but they think a plane hit the WTC.
I grew up in Northeastern, NJ. My Mom still lives there. They call the town I grew up in, a "bedroom community". A good majority of the residents there work in the city.
I hung up the phone, and continued to watch. I stood there in utter disbelief, watching another plane seemingly appear to slam into the next tower, on purpose.
I called Eric again. I said "OMG. I just watched a plane fly RIGHT INTO the other WTC tower. I swear I think it was on purpose!!"
I was shocked. I cried. I held my huge belly and wondered what kind of world was I bringing a baby into?!
I waddled back down to report to the gang on what I saw. We were all just stunned. Then we got word about the Pentagon being hit. Holy crap, man. This is insane! Planes flying into building, the drama of the other hijacked plane and where it was headed. All flights being grounded. The President being flown to the middle of the country. People jumping out of buildings. The sight of those planes, over and over and over. The loss and devastation. It was all so surreal.
It still is, and yet... how lucky we are. That day we got a taste of what many people around the world have to live in, everyday. The fear, the devastation. Can you imagine that being your daily life. I cannot.
The world has changed a lot in 5 years. The eternal question is always, "Are we safer"? I don't know. Maybe. We certainly are a lot more suspicious and cautious.
On this day, I remember the lives lost and those they left behind. I hope in these five years, you've been able to make peace with all senselessness.